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I'm so sorry I've been ignoring this blog so much lately. There were so many things to be done in the last few weeks and whenever I was in my room, I was doing homework. If I was done with homework, I was in bed. That's it. Classes - work - bed. I'm always tired/exhausted. Yesterday I was so worn out that I had to leave work two hours early because I felt like I was going to pass out. But no work today and Friday. Only tomorrow and Thursday left for this week. And then I get to go home and hopefully see my boo on Sunday night when he comes back from the horse show. I'm excited. :)

I changed my work schedule, so I am now working 5 to closing at 9 on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, and 4 to closing on Thursdays. It's a lot of working, but I'm excited for my check at the end of this week. :)

I'm almost halfway done with my third week of classes. I love the college part of my life now. There re annoying classes like English and Calculus, which I just never understand, but the rest of my classes are good. So far, I actually enjoy Chem and I understand it still. I had my first lab today and it was ok, but I just don't enjoy labs very much. Science labs that is. I love my animal practicum lab. It's awesome! First we have a lecture about whatever animal we will be working with and then we have a 4 hour lab on Thursdays where we actually get a lot of hands-on experience. It is awesome. I love it. My favorite class by far. My horse racing class is pretty cool, too. I changed my animal science orientation to a companion animal care class and although we don't do much in there, I still learn some useful stuff. Great schedule. :)

My first animal practicum class was about sheep. We learned how to set sheep, eye score them to find out if they have any bloodsucking stomach parasites and how to trim their feet. Very exciting. Last week, we worked with beef cattle. Herding them and putting them in a chute. We found out how to tell their age by looking at their teeth and got to listen to their lungs and heart. I also got to watch how to take blood from their jugular vein and got to take blood by my myself from their tail. It was great! :D This week we are working with pigs.

I'm tired of typing now and I will tell you more later..

And so it begins..

I moved in on Tuesday and so far it hasn't been too bad. It's weird to be alone. Well, as alone as you can be with about $20,000 other students. But seriously, living without a bf is weird. I miss him. A lot. We talk every day on the phone and skype, but it's just not the same. I'm so ready for him to come next weekend. Really looking forward to it.

I'm mostly moved in. My mom is bringing a fridge, microwave and some other stuff and then I'll be done. Mostly. I still need to figure out how to organize everything best. Takes me a while usually to get comfortable. hahaha

The bed is alright. It'll be a little tight when my bf is coming and I don't know yet what to do about it. Maybe buy a mattress and sleep on the floor? Or I could find a railing to put on the bed. I'm scared one of us will roll off the bed and fall onto by desk and tack box. Ouch! So far I've slept pretty well in it. That's probably because I walk around campus all day in the heat and am exhausted by the time I go to bed.

The campus is really pretty. There's some really unexpected beautiful places. Flower gardens and such. Amazing.

I know where all my classes are now. That's gonna make the first week a lot less stressful. I also visited the vet school today. I was very excited, but didn't actually see much besides the halls. lol They are setting up for the new vet class of 2015 I think. I didn't wanna be in the way.

My room is really cute. At least I think it is. I love it. I have my comfy corner to read and enough room to live. Or so we'll hope for now. My roommate is really nice. I like her.

I've been hanging out with my old friends a lot. I've met new people from both the US and Europe, but it'll take a while for me to really get comfortable around new people. So old friends it is for now. It's really nice actually, because I haven't seen them almost all summer long.

Classes start in two days. So does my new job. Makes me a little nervous to have a job as regular as this one. I've always been babysitting, dogsitting and tutoring. Nothing regular. Now I'll be working for about 5 hours every Monday and Wednesday. I will see how that goes and then try to get another day or two. The pay is not bad and very much needed. It's a job at the dining commons. Which aren't that bad actually. I don't like the Asian food, which I'm very upset about, but I guess I'll have to substitute with other things.

I'm gonna go to a poster sale later. :D I love poster but sadly never have enough room to put them up. I finally got to put up one of my German posters, my Ed Hardy door poster and the Victoria Frances one I've had for years. I love her pictures. They're incredible.

This is the one I own. But there are a lot of others I love, such as..

 

 

So close and also so far away..

I'm moving in four days. Can you believe it? I can hardly. It's so close. I'm so close to finally studying what I want. I can finally learn to do the job I have always wanted to do. Become a vet. I'm so excited about it. It's amazing.

But I'm also a little scared. I feel like everyone in my family has these high expectations. That I can do whatever I put in my head. At least academically. I'm the one who always does awesome at school. I'm scared not this time. What if I can't do it? What if I'm not good enough to get into vet school? It all makes me very nervous.

I got to focus. Focus on each semester and maybe I can do that. Maybe telling myself that will help, right? Hahaha.

So far away? Graduation from vet school is at least seven years away. It's gonna take forever! But oh well. One step at a time.

I got a job. I am so happy. It makes it so much easier. So far, it'll only be two days a week, but apparently I will be able to sign up for more eventually. It's a little extra money that I can save (Remember vet school? Yea.. it's pretty expensive) and I get some more work experience. If I don't make enough money here or I just need a different job, that will really help my resume. And maybe vet school app. Hahaha. I have orientation on Wednesday and will start on the 15th. Just like classes. They start that day also.

One of my fish died. I don't know why. One day he didn't move anymore and floated at the top; that's what the picture my bf sent me showed at least. He did look dead. Very dead. But when I came home, he acted better than I've ever seen him act. He looked like he felt amazing. The next day? Dead. The fish that lived, dead once again. And this time he stayed dead. Sad day. The other one seems to be doing better than before though. The big one kept bullying him and now that that one's gone, he seems happier.

Bf and I have been having a lot of fights lately. But somehow, at the same time, it's also been going better with us. At least that's how I feel. He is always scared that I won't be interested in him anymore once I'm in college and meet so many new people. But no. He doesn't need to worry about that. I'm gonna be focusing on school and work. Knowledge and experience. He is starting to get excited about me going to college, too, because he knows how excited I am. He wants me to do what I always dreamt about. And he trusts me to not use him or hurt his feelings if I can help it. I'm really serious with him and I'm trying to show him that. I think it's working.

He's not a big fan of reading, but he wants to do more of it to work on his English. So I bought him two books yesterday. I wanna give them to him on Tuesday when he goes home after we spend the day together in Athens. One has little German phrases in it. That way he can practice both common phrases in English and how to say them in German. He loves to study German and that way he can learn both. The second book is a travel book for Germany. I promised him that one day we would go to Germany together. Maybe he can pick out a few places now that he wants to see. :)